LiFe SuX~

LiFe SuX~

Lousy Mood

My mood is real lousy these few days..

feel so damn lousy coz
of heavy workload that is piling n piling..
i dont like my colls.. i cant clique with them.. different frequencies..
i feel lonely..
my health has deteriorate..
i cant find my goals in life..
i m tired..
i've lost interest in many thgs..
i m sick of hearing the complaints when i reach hm..
i m sick of hearing the naggings..
i m sick of hearing ppl ard me quarelling over small matters..
i m sick to be ard ppl who always create troubles..
i m sick of all the sicken thgs that is happen ard me now..

my head is heavy now..
i wanna smile, i wanna laugh.. but i find it hard..

y m i in this world?
juz to compete with u for oxygen..
ok.. i surrender.. i stop breathing now..
let u take in more oxygen coz oxygen is only meant for useful, clever, hardworking n ambitious ppl..

I wanna b a Doraemon

Last Sun, i watched the fund raising show for Sichuan Earthquake. Most of the audiences n the artistes cried. I didn't. Instead, i felt that those artistes r faking their sadness.. Dont know.. mayb b'coz of the nature of their profession ba.. acting... n also the NKF scandal..

But why cry? u shouldnt b crying. Only the ppl in Sichuan hv the right to cry. They r the victims, they lost their loved ones, they hv lost everythg. But we ppl here in Singapore r safe n sound, so y cry? We all should find ways to help those ppl in Sichuan. Does crying help? Sometimes being too emotional will hinder ur brain to work properly.

The fund raising show was a success as the total fund raised hit over 10 mio. But do they really need so much money now? i tink not now ba.. properly only in the near future.. wat they need now is the family warmth that most of them hv lost n nv to be found again.. how i wish i m doraemon.. so that i can lend them my machine to return back to the time b4 this disaster.

Vesak Day

Ytd was Vesak Day.

Saw this meaningful quote on a Vesak Day banner - "Don't dwell in the past. Don't dream about the future. Concentrate on the present."

Don't dream?! I can't! Dreaming is one of the typical characteristic of a piscean.

Haiz~ no more public hoildays to enjoy. The next upcoming public holiday is National Day on 9th Aug. But it falls on a sat! then followed by hari raya & deepavali in Oct. Sigh~ still a long way to go..

Finally.. Finally Myanmar opened up the doors to receive aids from ASEAN.

Many Disasters.. Too Disastrous...

The recent Sichuan earthquake reminds me of somethg. I rmb somewhr in dec last yr, i read qt a few articles regarding the famous fortune tellers' predictions of the yr 2008. It was predicted that the yr 2008 is qt an unlucky yr. A lot of mishaps will take place. Furthermore, the chinese said that this yr is a blind yr (盲年）. I cant rmb exactly what did the fortune tellers predict, but the recent happenings did prove that this yr is rather a bad yr.

Snow storm. Sand storm. Abnormal weather changes. US recession. Shortage of rice. Tibet protest. The Myanmar cyclone. Sichuan earthquake.

Well, i hope i can stop here. No more counting. Now is now even half past the yr of 2008 n so many bad thgs have taken place. haiz~ Frankly speaking, at this moment, all the Chinese in China should be feeling proud n happy n celebrating their hosting of the 2008 Olympics. Nobody expect things to turn out so dramatic (but mayb some fortune tellers did expected). But dont u find it weird? How come China is so suay recently?? Dont forget.. they r recently insulted by the CNN reporter n they demanded a USD1 compensation to every single China resident. So, is the god trying to help the CNN reporter to reduce the compensation amt??

Btw, Myanmar very cool yeah.. very "sud".. rejected all the aids n helping hands. y? what's the reason?
As for China, a lot of monies, food n neccessities hv been donated to help them. I saw this meaning banner in the news " 一方遇灾，八方支援".

The earthquake has total disfigured the landscape n the properties. 3 dams r damaged n there's a risk of the low lying villages being flooded, casuing more death n damages. Earthquake is really terrible. I suddenly hv the urge to learn Geography. So that i can invent somethg that can prevent earthquakes from happening. I know that there's still no full stop for this Sichuan earthquake yet. I just sensed that somethg will followed. could it be a volcano eruption? hopefully not.

These few days, some fortune tellers came out to give their predictions again. They said that the lunar 4th & 5th month is the worst mth of the yr. Somethg will take place within the next 1 mth. Besides that, on the 17th nov, somethg bad is going to happen. Do u believe? I choose not to believe though.

Bad Experience in the Train :(

As per normal thurs, i knocked off from work n headed to my student's hse for tuition. But what was so special abt ytd? Boarded the LRT with 3 baby prams in it. Pls imagine. 3 baby prams plus the crowded during the peak hr! 1 baby pram is enough to create inconvenience for the commuters. So, can u imagine the inconvenience created by 3 baby prams squeezing into the pathetic small LRT?

Can LTA pls ban the use of baby prams in the trains? or can the parents pls be considerate to carry ur children instead of pushing the baby pram during peak hr? n pls stop wheeling ur prams over my delicate feet n knocking on my delicate ankles?

Besides this, I faced another type of special commuters. Wonder if there's any problem with their spine coz they juz simply cant use their spine to stand straight. They need to lean their backs on the grab poles which r meant for ppl like me who r poor at balancing to grab. These spineless commuters r really selfish, brainless n idiotic. Leaning on the poles when my delicate hand is still holding on to the pole. Making my hand dirty n pain. I adjusted my knuckles to poke their backs but they simply hv no feeling at all! Well, dear commuters, if u really hv such weak spine, i can recommend u to Dr Hee, a very gd spine specialist in NUH. Get ur spine treated n stop tat selfish act of urs!!!
Really suay ytd. Met another idiotic commuter. A typical 3 8 aunty with big ass. Tink she also has weak spine. Cant stand straight. But there's no more poles for her to lean. N guess wat? she leaned on me!!! i was sitting down n her big ass was leaning on my shoulders!! Suay man~ n keep pushing me causing me to keep slanting my body to the person sitting beside me. ARGHHH!!!!

May Day 五月的天

黄金海岸的岸边
我们肩并著肩
洁净的蓝天
清澈的水面
吻成一条海平线

看你温柔的双眼
弹著吉他的弦
歌词是诺言
旋律是依恋
唱出一首五月天

五月的天 刚诞生的夏天
我们之间才完成的爱恋
紧握的手里面 有好多明天
五月的天 梦开始要鲜艳
前方蜿蜒 一长串的心愿
我们一天一天慢慢实现

May Day - the 1st words that strike my mind when i was thinking what to write for my 1st blog.

Y? B'coz many things had happened in the 1st 2 weeks of May... Good & Bad.. Made me generate so many thoughts until my brain has less than 1GB of free memory to spare... so, i've decided to pen down all my thoughts here.. in case it got overwrite by other upcoming thoughts...

So.. what happened in May?

1st May: Labour Day
Great day for me!! b'coz it's a holiday!! i no need to go to work!!! Yippie!!
Went to east coast with my parents & little sis... Had a relaxing n breezy late morning there..
Enjoyed the sound of waves, the sound of laughters, the sight of ppl having fun, screaming n shouting... the scene is so different from the scene i saw everyday in the office.. 2 extremes..

Built sandcastle with my little sis.. well not really sandcastle though.. juz blocks of sands i should say..

I love the beach.. too bad i cant really c the beach often as i m staying very far from the beaches.. lazy & costly to travel all the way from the west to the east.. talking abt beaches, i've longed to go the beautiful beaches like Tioman & Redang..

I love the morning sun too.. coz i dont get to absorb the morning sun rays during weekdays.. normally i reach the office ard 7.40am.. n will be locked in prison all the way until 5.30pm.. my skin really need some Vitamin E from Mr Sun..

5th May: Diarrhoea
Took MC b'coz i had diarrhoea that night. Waited for 1 n half hr to c the doc. Boh bian. Hv to wait coz i need to get the MC. While waiting for my turn, i was playing with some games on my hp.

Minutes passed. I was qt pissed off by the long waiting time.

Suddenly somethg caught my attention (0 。0) i been sitting beside this little ger for qt sometime. I know her existence as she was talking n laughing with her mum. BUT!! i didnt manage to see the red dots all over her face, body, hands n legs!!! OH GOSH!!!! dont tell me it's chicken pox!!! Indeed, it is! n we've been keeping less than an arm-length distance!! I've nv had chicken pox b4 n i nv would like to hv tat scary virus. But it's too late. Well, i am not the only one who was shocked. Some other ppl were shocked & scared too. They even went forward to ask the nurse if chicken pox can be spread by air...

10th May: Early Celebration for Mother's Day
I've been waiting for this day to come!!! Coz i've ordered a bouquet of flowers for my mum!! Delivery time is from 12pm - 2pm. Waited & waited until ard 1.15pm, somebody rang the doorbell. Haha.. i was laughing to myself. I purposely didnt go n answer the door. So my mum did. she was qt surprised. Hehe. Well, the flowers was beautiful but too bad the carnations still havent bloom yet.. The bouquet came with a tata bear wearing a very nice shirt with wordings for Mum. Glad that mummy like it. She then sewed our names on the bear's shirt, to make it more special. We had a nice seafood dinner at Sembawang. Reasonable price n fresh seafood. GOOD!

11th May: Mother's Day
Gave my mum another surprise!! Another present for her!! I bought a Nokia2600 Classic for her. Normal & simple hp suitable for her usage with camera function. Went to bugis Guan Yin Temple. I wished my godmother Happy Mother's Day too! Haha..

Then went ard to shop. Bought a Kappa baby pink cap which i fell in love with at 1st sight. Bought a Carlo Rino pink sling bag which caught my attention too. Then i realised somethg. That is everytime i went to bugis, i'll buy a bag home. Haha..

That night, we expected all the kopitiams to b fully packed, so decided to order pizza for dinner but couldnt get thru the line. Network Busy. Network Busy. Finally, we gave up calling n had maggie mee instead.

12th May: Tragic Earthquake in Sichuan, China
Didnt really pay much attention to this news initially till i saw the death tolls keep rising. from a few thousand to 10k n until today is 24k It was reported that death tolls is expected to hit 60k!!!!! I really cant believe it! Have been following the news since ytd. Saw the pics. High-rise building area is now a flat piece of land piled with waste materials. Houses, cars n belongings were destroyed and can nv be retrieve back. If i were to be at the scene now, i'll breakdown.

Heart sunk. Speechless. Sadness beyond words.
A minute of silence please for the deads & prayers for the victims.
Show your support to the rescuers who are still rescuing the victims.