对。我现在觉得非常无比的委屈。
周末应该是我一个星期最休闲的时候。我通常都不出门，只为了能够多陪陪家人。但这也无形的增加了我与他们的摩擦。
我只不过是不想驾车，这也有错吗？我真的搞不懂， 也不明白这有什么不对. 不驾车，那就用步行啊。也就应为这件事，她就开始气我。 对我做的每一件事都看不过眼。她摆黑脸， 与我没理由的冷战。 我越想越不服，我更本没做错事，干吗生我的气啊！不过这样也好，她更我冷战，全家人都会站在她那里。他们能够和乐融融，说说笑笑。 只要他们能够开心就好了。反正，我也早已习惯被排挤，被冷落。
眼见去香港的日子快到了，我其实也没那么的期待。我已经是个木头人了，没知觉，没反应。 什么叫做兴奋，我也不知道了。我爸还没还我钱，我现在是穷光蛋一个。没钱去换港币，没钱买行李箱。我家人的想象力也未免太丰富了吧，他们以为我现在出来做工，每个月能赚个十千八千的。 我所赚的那区区两千元能够给他们拖欠多少，多久呢？现在想到去香港却没钱花，真不甘心。不够钱换港币，但是，我现在那一点储蓄却能够让我换很多很多的冥纸冥钱耶。
真苦恼，真苦恼。
21 July 2008
为什么？
为什么我总觉得我一直都在走衰运呢？
为什么我总是觉得不开心呢？
我好像好久都没听到我自己的笑声了。。。
以前，朋友都说我的笑声非常有感染力。 虽然他们不知道我在笑什么，可是当他们听见或看见我笑，他们的嘴角也忍不住地往上翘。
但，自从我踏入社会工作后，我的情绪突然陷入了低潮。压力开始形影不离的伴随着我的每一天。它以各式各样不同的身份缠绕在我身边。工作压力，情感压力，金钱压力，精神压力，情绪压力等等。。
孤寂成为了我最要好的朋友。以往爱闹，爱鬼话连篇， 爱说笑的恩，突然变得非常的孤僻。一天二十四小时里，说的话也不过几句。我的耳朵好久好久没听到那把甜美的声音及那非常有感染力的笑声了。我那曾经丰厚的两家也消失了。因为不常笑，肌肉以松弛了。
这是我才涣然发现，原来恩已不在了。她已消失了。她去了那里我也不清楚，但我深信她应该过得更以前一样的快乐。我不知道能否有机会再见到她，但如果真的有的话，我想也只能在梦里遇见她吧。
为什么我总是觉得不开心呢？
我好像好久都没听到我自己的笑声了。。。
以前，朋友都说我的笑声非常有感染力。 虽然他们不知道我在笑什么，可是当他们听见或看见我笑，他们的嘴角也忍不住地往上翘。
但，自从我踏入社会工作后，我的情绪突然陷入了低潮。压力开始形影不离的伴随着我的每一天。它以各式各样不同的身份缠绕在我身边。工作压力，情感压力，金钱压力，精神压力，情绪压力等等。。
孤寂成为了我最要好的朋友。以往爱闹，爱鬼话连篇， 爱说笑的恩，突然变得非常的孤僻。一天二十四小时里，说的话也不过几句。我的耳朵好久好久没听到那把甜美的声音及那非常有感染力的笑声了。我那曾经丰厚的两家也消失了。因为不常笑，肌肉以松弛了。
这是我才涣然发现，原来恩已不在了。她已消失了。她去了那里我也不清楚，但我深信她应该过得更以前一样的快乐。我不知道能否有机会再见到她，但如果真的有的话，我想也只能在梦里遇见她吧。
15 July 2008
Busy for nothing
WOW~ cant believe it!!! i havent been blogging for abt 1 mth le.. time seems to fly so fast during this period..
i m very busy at work coz i suddenly got the motivation to work.. whr does this motivation comes from???
i m wondering..
n finally i noe y.. definitely not b'coz of my colls in the office n not my accounts boss.. i tink is from my colls in the site office who gave me the motivation.. those workers were very gd.. they'll sincerely thank me for helping them to do somethg.. when someone appreciate ur effort.. u'll naturally be happy n look forward to help them again right? n my site mgr also very nice.. always will b there to answer any queries from me.. frankly speaking.. i m always waiting for the workers n site mgrs to call me.. talking to them on the phone is my only chance to talk n laugh.. coz i nv enjoy chatting with the ppl in this office one.. so boring..
i've been in this co for a yr le.. 1yr le.. no news of increment upon my 1 yr stay in the co.. rec'd a letter from hr ytd.. to my disappointment.. it's only a letter of agreement on the variable portion of our salary.. saying that in adverse business times.. the co will only pay me 85% of my salary.. (-_-") sianz~
talking abt money.. i m stressed on my personal finance.. my dad seems to hv difficulty in getting his claim from the companies he worked for.. all the companies hv been delaying his claim.. so he asked me to pay for the utilities n hp bill.. until now.. all adds up to more than 2k le.. i feel so down when i see my savings figure.. really really very disheartening.. :(
i'll be away to hk with JASE from 24th-27th July.. saw from the news that hk is flooding recently.. hopefully by the 24th.. the flood would hv subsided..
i m very busy at work coz i suddenly got the motivation to work.. whr does this motivation comes from???
i m wondering..
n finally i noe y.. definitely not b'coz of my colls in the office n not my accounts boss.. i tink is from my colls in the site office who gave me the motivation.. those workers were very gd.. they'll sincerely thank me for helping them to do somethg.. when someone appreciate ur effort.. u'll naturally be happy n look forward to help them again right? n my site mgr also very nice.. always will b there to answer any queries from me.. frankly speaking.. i m always waiting for the workers n site mgrs to call me.. talking to them on the phone is my only chance to talk n laugh.. coz i nv enjoy chatting with the ppl in this office one.. so boring..
i've been in this co for a yr le.. 1yr le.. no news of increment upon my 1 yr stay in the co.. rec'd a letter from hr ytd.. to my disappointment.. it's only a letter of agreement on the variable portion of our salary.. saying that in adverse business times.. the co will only pay me 85% of my salary.. (-_-") sianz~
talking abt money.. i m stressed on my personal finance.. my dad seems to hv difficulty in getting his claim from the companies he worked for.. all the companies hv been delaying his claim.. so he asked me to pay for the utilities n hp bill.. until now.. all adds up to more than 2k le.. i feel so down when i see my savings figure.. really really very disheartening.. :(
i'll be away to hk with JASE from 24th-27th July.. saw from the news that hk is flooding recently.. hopefully by the 24th.. the flood would hv subsided..
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